Herbs De Provence

…among other things I am completely and utterly addicted to this website called Pinterest. It is a social media website which is a huge time waster largely for women to decorate houses we can’t afford… pick out clothes we can’t fit into, or can’t afford, and DIY crafts we will rarely actually do. I am pretty proud of myself for actually doing a small handful of the hundreds of things I’ve “pinned”. I made this amazing smelling Williams Sonoma Home Scent…. made an organizational snack basket for my little miss – and today I gathered the ingredients for these decedent looking chicken cupcakes I plan to make later this week! (yeah you heard me… chicken cupcakes) One of the ingredients I was trying to find was Herbs De Provence. Herbs De who? Exactly. It’s a southern french spice blend that is used in a lot of chicken dishes etc. I looked all over the dry spice aisle at the local grocer and couldn’t find it. So I began looking up what spices were in it. One of them was lavender along with thyme, savory, marjoram, and rosemary. I wasn’t at Whole Foods Market so I figured my chances of finding lavender were pretty darn slim… but then like a magical hidden jewel – I found it – Herbs De Provence. It cost me a pretty penny – but my brother-in-law who loves to cook said that it will take potatoes, and other dishes from zero to hero. I’m hoping he’s right. I will post next week how they (the cupcakes) turned out. This week is brilliant. I don’t have much going on which is a welcome reprieve from the usual. Perhaps I’ll even get to bed before midnight this week! (That’s hilarious,although I have switched to Decaf for the afternoons now). I plan on spring cleaning my house,and chucking everything and everything I haven’t used in the past year. The temps are in the 60’s and 70’s this week, and the trend continues into next. Happy Spring to all- I’m off to look up some home organizing tips on Pinterest!

The Secret to….

This past month has been a season of growing for me. Jason has traveled for work before, but never for a whole month at a time. This left me with our four year old, our four pets, the house, and other obligations I’m a part of to manage solo.

Tonight, after 30 long days and nights we are finally picking Jason up from the airport, and I couldn’t be more estatic.Jason and I were both in the Navy, stationed together, however two of our 4 combined deployments we spent away from each other. 

First – I was in Okinawa Japan, while he was on the remote tiny island of Diego Garcia, smack dab in the middle of the Indian ocean, and once more when he was sent to a city just north of Bagdad in harms way while I was safely in Guam. Both of these times we spent six months apart from each other, and I absolutely cannot imagine ever spending that much time apart again. 

One month was difficult enough. I can’t imagine if we were only 1/6 of the way through.One month was still a very big change for us. Usually when Jason has had to travel for work he would be gone during the week, and would come home on the weekends, or at most every other weekend, which before [this trip] I thought was excruciating!

The first night after Jason left I just crumbled, and weapt. I thought I’m never going to make this work, how can I do this? I reached out to God, and told Him [audibly] that I couldn’t do it on my own, and how much I needed Him. “From the depths of despair, O Lord, I call for your help.”Psalm 130:1I’ve heard of people calling on the help of God, and I’ve called on Him before, but never like this. 1 Peter 5:7 says, “Give all your worries and cares to God, for he cares about you”, and Proverbs 3:5 states, “Trust in the Lord with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding.”

 I decided in that moment to fully surrender my life again to His command and trust that he would get us through.By obeying God in this way – to let him be in the drivers seat, He provided in ways I never could have imagined…

 Everything always seemed to work out. If I had things to do – that required concentration, our daughter seemed content to entertain herself (which is new). I had more patience with everyone, and amazingly everything seemed to get done. At times it was like God made time stand still so I could get everything done I needed to, because my evenings never flew by.

 I saw his Word fulfilled in my life this past month through Isaiah 26:12, “Lord, you will grant us peace. All we have accomplished is really from you” and from Paul in 2 Corinthians 3:5, “Not that we are sufficient in ourselves to claim anything as coming from us, but our sufficiency is from God.”God provided me with people as well.

 He provided me with friends and family members to watch our little miss when things came up, or when I needed a much needed break last weekend to go downhill skiing with my siblings. He provided the neighborhood girl to play with our daughter two weeks ago when I was trying to get a particular task complete.God provides!People ask me how I do it. How do I go for 14 days to a month without my husband. Without his support romantically, as a father, and as an extra set of hands to help, how do I do it? 

I was able to do this – because my Father was along side me the entire time.When asked that question in the past, I usually said, “I don’t know”, or “I just keep busy”, or “we’ve done it before”, or “I only have one child”, but those aren’t really what gets me through it. God gets me through it. I do it with Gods help.

So tonight we’re picking up my best friend, my husband, and my little girl’s daddy whom we’ve both missed so incredibly much. I cannot wait to run into his arms at the airport. Instead of doing the “drive by”, I’m parking my car,and waiting at the end of the escalator inside, so I can run to him with my daughter and embrace each each other. My eyes are filling with tears at the prospect of our reunion in a hopefully fast 11-12 hours. 

I won’t cease needing Gods help, and my prayer is that I don’t become complacent about needing to rely on God even with Jason now home.

“My lover has arrived and he’s speaking to me! Get up,my dear friend,fair and beautiful lover – come to me”Song of Solomon 2:10

The Secret To

This past month has been a season of growing for me. Jason has traveled for work before, but never for a whole month at a time. This left me with our four year old, our four pets, the house, and other obligations I’m a part of to manage solo. Tonight, after 30 long days and nights we are finally picking Jason up from the airport, and I couldn’t be more ecstatic. Jason and I were both in the Navy, stationed together, however two of our 4 combined deployments we spent away from each other. First – I was in Okinawa Japan, while he was on the remote tiny island of Diego Garcia, smack dab in the middle of the Indian ocean, and once more when he was sent to a city just north of Baghdad in harms way while I was safely in Guam. Both of these times we spent six months apart from each other, and I absolutely cannot imagine ever spending that much time apart again. One month was difficult enough. I can’t imagine if we were only 1/6 of the way through. One month was still a very big change for us. Usually when Jason has had to travel for work he would be gone during the week, and would come home on the weekends, or at most every other weekend, which before [this trip] I thought was excruciating! The first night after Jason left I just crumbled, and wept. I thought I’m never going to make this work, how can I do this? I reached out to God, and told Him [audibly] that I couldn’t do it on my own, and how much I needed Him. “From the depths of despair, O Lord, I call for your help.”Psalm 130:1 I’ve heard of people calling on the help of God, and I’ve called on Him before, but never like this. 1 Peter 5:7 says, “Give all your worries and cares to God, for he cares about you”, and Proverbs 3:5 states, “Trust in the Lord with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding.” I decided in that moment to fully surrender my life again to His command and trust that he would get us through. By obeying God in this way – to let him be in the drivers seat, He provided in ways I never could have imagined. Everything always seemed to work out. If I had things to do – that required concentration, Kirra seemed content to entertain herself (which is new). I had more patience with everyone, and amazingly everything seemed to get done. At times it was like God made time stand still so I could get everything done I needed to, because my evenings never flew by. I saw his Word fulfilled in my life this past month through Isaiah 26:12, “Lord, you will grant us peace. All we have accomplished is really from you” and from Paul in 2 Corinthians 3:5, “Not that we are sufficient in ourselves to claim anything as coming from us, but our sufficiency is from God.” God provided me with people as well. He provided me with friends and family members to watch Kirra when things came up, or when I needed a much needed break last weekend to go downhill skiing with my siblings. He provided the neighborhood girl to play with Kirra two weeks ago when I was trying to get a particular task complete. God provides! People ask me how I do it. How do I go for 14 days to a month without my husband. Without his support romantically, as a father, and as an extra set of hands to help, how do I do it? I was able to do this – because my Father was along side me the entire time. When asked that question in the past, I usually said, “I don’t know”, or “I just keep busy”, or “we’ve done it before”, or “I only have one child”, but those aren’t really what gets me through it. God gets me through it. I do it with Gods help. So tonight we’re picking up my best friend, my husband, and Kirra’s daddy whom we’ve both missed so incredibly much. I cannot wait to run into his arms at the airport. Instead of doing the “drive by”, I’m parking my car,and waiting at the end of the escalator inside, so I can run to him with Kirra and embrace each each other. My eyes are filling with tears at the prospect of our reunion in a hopefully fast 11-12 hours. I won’t cease needing Gods help, and my prayer is that I don’t become complacent about needing to rely on God even with Jason now home. “My lover has arrived and he’s speaking to me! Get up,my dear friend,fair and beautiful lover – come to me” Song of Solomon 2:10