“Many are the plans in a person’s heart, but it is the Lord’s purpose that prevails.” ~ Proverbs 19:21 NIV11

Since this verse has been posted I have been breathing in every word of it this week.

We have in our neighborhood an outstanding K-12 charter school. Not only is it ranked for test scores one of the highest in our state, the children wear uniforms (which I have a daughter – and lets face it… girls are mean, and not worrying about if she is wearing Holister or Old Navy is a blessing of itself, school is almost year round, and the class sizes are petite! (max class has 18 or 20 students – as opposed to our public schools which are around 32-35).

My daughter will be entering Kindergarten next fall, and I have dREAMED of her going here since she was 8 or 9 months old. Many are the plans in a person’s heart….

The only downfall – is because of the petite yet amazing classes, teachers, and high test scores – a lot of people want to attend – but they only have so much room. So, what do they do? A lottery!

Since last November I have been praying that if it is in Gods will that my daughter attend this school He can provide divine intervention and get her chosen.

So last month I entered my daughters name in the “hat” so to speak. Since January 3rd I have continually prayed over this every morning, noon and night, and again – stating that if this will fit in God’s plan for my daughter, and our family to please allow us to get into this school!  Last year over 200 people applied for the kindergarten classes and only 54 got in (3 classes)…. So I’ve she’s got about a 25% chance of actually getting chosen.

Yesterday was Lottery day. I sat glued to my phone the entire day, and anytime it rang, or alerted me to a text message, or a weather alert I jumped thinking it was the school.  Later to find out they ran the lottery last night (February 12th). I couldn’t take it any longer. At 6:30 p.m. I anonymously called to school to find out the process of notifying families, and they said they would start calling families today (Wednesday), and hopefully be done by the end of the week.

Today (Wednesday) came and went, and while I literally sat next to my cell phone, again jumping at every single alert and text message, my phone miraculously did not ring until 6pm when my husband called me.

Today has come and gone, and I find this verse popping out at me.

“Many are the plans in a person’s heart, but it is the Lord’s purpose that prevails.” ~ Proverbs 19:21 NIV11

Still tonight I am praying that we will be one of the lucky chosen ones but you’re called in the order that you were chosen, so as a day goes by my chances are seeming less and less. Obviously “it aint over yet” and I am still hopeful that I will get a call tomorrow… but I need to be ok if she is not chosen.

Thought I’ve had my heart absolutely dead set on her going to this school there is a real chance it may not happen. And I can get mad about it and cry and cause a fuss, but I have to remind myself that I haven’t been just praying, “Oh please God, please get her into this school… pretty please with a cherry on top”, but I’ve been praying that if it is in HIS WILL….

I do have plans for my daughter as any mother or parent does, but the Lord our Father knows best, and I feel so grateful I have this verse to really lean into – to hold me up if I do hear those words, “wait listed” and if I don’t get my way. Will I be completely heart broken and devastated even if it is God’s will? Yep. I will…. but I will prevail, because it is the Lord’s purpose that prevails… and that’s something I can bank on!

**Update** My daughter did NOT  originally get in to this school, but we were #4 on the waiting list [which is somewhat hopeful]. ~ They called about a month later to tell us they had a spot for us! YAY!!!!! Over the course of the waiting period I really really felt God prepare my heart for the ‘no’ answer. Only He could have calmed my heart and prepared it in this way. Thank you Lord for your unwavering love, and support!**